This won't work, I know it won't. But I hate to give up because you mean too much to me now. I apologize if I made you unhappy without knowing it, if I had a bad attitude and temper, if I caused you to get into unnecessary trouble..and I don't know what else I did that I should apologize for. I don't know what to do anymore, it gets extremely frustrating when things like that happen and all the hopes I had before just falls apart..
I always try so hard to suppress my feelings, which is very difficult for someone like me..I try to act nonchalent and pretend like I don't care when deep down, I do. Yes, I admit it eats into me
a hell lot and affects everything I do, but I guess I have no right to complain because afterall, this is what I chose to do. And this is the price I have to pay.
Worth it? Sometimes yes, sometimes no, I don't really care - because looking at you just makes me forget about everything else, and whatever feelings I felt before wouldn't matter anymore.
This is what you can do to me.
This is how you affect me and my life if you don't already know. I'm not perfect, am nowhere near perfection either. But I believed I tried to make things work out..you don't know how I want this to work out so badly. And I hope that, despite everything that has happened in between, I still brought you some kind of happiness you can't find somewhere else.
A kind of happiness that's unique to you, me - us.
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