This is wrong. All very wrong. But why am I enjoying every moment of it and not attempt to convince myself that this is not the way things should be? Or maybe because I'm living up to the title of being perverse?
Hah, right. Asked what I thought about myself and I didn't know how to answer, because I really do not know. Feelings are almost impossible to control. The only thing you can do about them is reveal or mask them. But I guess for most people, it's definitely quite taxing to hide your feelings. Be it disappointment, anxiety, sadness, or even bliss.
And yes, I know this is all bad. Really, I do. I just hope that the situation won't come to a point where I can't control things that are happening.
11:59 PM
