It ended with a perfect start.
Finally done with OCOM presentation on Thursday. As usual, I was overly nervous (for what, you ask), made way too long pauses, and spoke too quickly (and perhaps incoherently). but I dont care, because OCOM is officially over, so hell with it.
I'd be lying if I said I'm not sad. of course I am. If you give me something only to take it away later, then I rather not want it at all. absolutely detest the feeling of shortlived happiness. It is something I'm all too familiar with, and I dont particularly like it. I know it will get fixed somehow, and it will be back in perfect working condition soon (how long? i dont know).
I know, i know. Its just that I cant help feeling sad. for myself, for it. I believe it has a life of its own (now dont ask why), and it hurts to see it broken and smashed, probably feeling half as helpless as I am. And worse of all, it was just a pathetic 3-day old gadget. I know it can be fixed, that all will be fine, so dont worry about me because I'm feeling just a little sad and
very tired. So please, dont worry because I'm alright; because I will remember:
"We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, 'Why did this happen to me?' unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way."Stats paper was shit (and it doesnt help if your $320 iPod mini which was just 3-day old got fatally bruised hours before the test). I knew how to do it but I dont know how to do it, if you get what I mean. Blanked out on the normal distribution question, and the one about sampling distribution. plus I dont know if I did the probability question and the binomial one correctly. Wont be too surprised if I failed (not like I want to). hell, I guess I gotta study even harder (not like I dont) for term exams. but well, luck is running all-time low, so..
hm,
lychee martini is good.
My cowardice is disgusting its eating into me. I loathe feeling helpless and lost.
Because when you scold, you spoil the relationship. I would kill to read your mind. But then again, I dont know if I really want to, because where would all the intensity go if you become so predictable. Now, tell me what should I do.
12:54 AM
