And I'll be damned.
4:28 PM
This is wrong. All very wrong. But why am I enjoying every moment of it and not attempt to convince myself that this is not the way things should be? Or maybe because I'm living up to the title of being perverse?
Hah, right. Asked what I thought about myself and I didn't know how to answer, because I really do not know. Feelings are almost impossible to control. The only thing you can do about them is reveal or mask them. But I guess for most people, it's definitely quite taxing to hide your feelings. Be it disappointment, anxiety, sadness, or even bliss.
And yes, I know this is all bad. Really, I do. I just hope that the situation won't come to a point where I can't control things that are happening.
11:59 PM
| BUSINESS STATISTICS |
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10:26 PM
Work has been relatively managable last week. Worked during the evening shift for all 5 days. Its quite easy to learn and not repeat mistakes cause the things we do are basically all the same. For Sundays to Thursdays, its counter service. Which means we do not have to take orders from the customers but instead they order from the counter itself. So all we do is serve, clear, set tables etc. However, for Fridays and Saturdays (which are considered the 'busier' days), we provide table service, in other words, we take orders from them. Counter service can be quite confusing because of the various number tags the customers hold, and sometimes they seem to be blocking the numbers on purpose or something so you cant see the tags. If you ask me, I would prefer table servicing cause the table numbers are fixed and its
way easier to identify the customers/tables. And I like working with the crowds too. Love the feeling of working under stress even though I get really anxious and end up making mistakes. Hurhur.
Am working all 7 days this week. First time working during the morning shift and I
really like it. Time seem to pass really quickly for me, even though Yufen thought otherwise. I guess cause we get to talk more to the other people working there than compared to the evening shifts when there are more crowds. So far I've met almost everyone working there. More or less familiar with their faces and all. There's Serene, Joshua, Rachel, Wan Yee (a guy btw), Jasmine, Bernie, Edward, Mindy, Nora, Agnes, Rafidah, Gary, Bob (manager), Jack (operations manager), Jo (admin/HR), and Paul, the boss (who is very intimidating cause he doesnt exactly smile). Hm, I think I can say I enjoy working at My Secret Garden so far. Might want to work when the school term starts as well cause the schedules are really flexible. Oh, you can check out the website
here. The layout/decor is really exaggerated though, but Yufen said its because there were many changes implemented by Bob when he first came (to work there).
Went out with Fanny today after work. Was supposed to go to Little India but dear miss Fanny took quite some time doing her manicure so we decided to head to town instead. And will somebody
please stab me for buying TWO pairs of shoes ($19.90 and $25 respectively) in a day. Even bought a belt for $18 and a bracelet for $4. I wouldnt mind if you stabbed me twice. Or thrice for that matter. I havent received my pay and here I am spending money like I have a lot when in fact, I do not. Argh. (But I still like that pair of black shoes, and the denium skirt, and the top/s..)
Oh, I caught the movie of
The 5 People You Meet in Heaven yesterday on cable channel 17. Its nice, I like it. The lady who acted as Marguerite (sp?) was/is really pretty. Dunno what's her real name though. They're gonna show
Tuesdays with Morrie too. But not sure when though.
Term results will be out this Thursday. Am crossing my fingers
really hard that I wont have to repeat any modules.
I apologise if my entries are dull and boring (cant stand it either). All I can think of is to write about my mundane life which will only serve as a form of memory months later. I remember I once told a friend that I want to be depressed so I could write better. Don't you think that most people write best when they're all sad and depressed and mopey? But I also remember not long after I said that, something quite unpleasant happened. Oh well.
11:36 PM
Been on a job-hunting spree with Yufen and Fanny for two days now. Went for a few interviews at various places like Cafe Cartel and whatnots. Would love to work at this place located opposite Fortune Centre near Middle Road (somewhere around Bugis area) called
My Secret Garden. The place itself is impressive and somewhat nerve-wrecking. I think its probably some high-class bar/restaurant which serves mainly Italian and Asian cuisine. Really hope we get the job cause I think it would be a really awesome experience.
*Edit: Received an SMS from the Manager on Sunday evening. Am starting work on Monday, 1104. =)Click.Hell, the wait is killing me. June? July? Ughs. I can wait no longer. Can't wait. Can't wait..
10:48 PM
Have I ever mention how I love walking around town aimlessly? When I'm alone, that is. With nowhere in mind, you just go wherever your feet brings you, where the crowds go. Love the feeling of not having to ask someone else if its okay to head here or there. You just go wherever you want; no restrictions at all. I realise its at times when I'm alone where I usually do things on the spur of the moment. Maybe 'cause there's no one to stop me or anything. And somehow time seem to pass quite quickly when I'm alone. It's even faster if I have music playing in my ears, then I would mouth the lyrics if I know them. Well anyhow, I guess this is my idea of temporary freedom. Sort of like, cut off from the rest of the world or something. Hm.
It's so cold out there in the night and there's no one beside to keep me safe and warm.
3:51 PM
"她只知道， 当一个女人感到幸福， 也一定有另一个女人因为她的幸福而痛苦。"
An absurd kind of pain in her heart.
2:53 AM
The sweet innocent girl that I once/never was. Tsk, my hair looks shorter in this photo, but I like. Maybe I should cut it like this, no?
2:15 AM
'Cause we're just too sexy for our blogs (right). Hurhur.
2:14 AM
Pretty pretty.
2:14 AM
And so they ended...Stats was managable actually, but I realised I did quite a few parts wrongly. I got a negative regression line! Argh. Probably did the probability question one wrongly too. Counting on the first question to gain more marks.
Rarrrrr. And everyone from TB22, please stop copying me by imitating my
"Rarrrrr" growl. Oh, and my
"Bleahhhhh" puking sound (originated by Guohao) too. Damn it.
Went out with Fanny and Yufen yday. met them at 3 in town. Yufen was with Sandee and Tiffany cos they went back to Fairfield for choir. Found a new place to hangout, thanks to Sandee. Tiff and Sand left after a while, and we went to walk around town. Paul came to meet us at around 8, and we took a bus down to Cityhall. Went M)phosis and bought a pair of slippers, which led Fanny and Yufen to gush and wow over it and thus, all 3 of us ended up having the same pair. Hurhur. Saw this top that was
really nice; think I'm gonna get it when tmw after dental at 12PM. Argh, I have yet to get Wee Cheng's present.
*Edit: Bought the top the next day after my dental appointment. Got the black one (there was brown too) 'cause I thought it looked more formal and classy.Went to Thai Express for dinner. It was crazy. Hysterical. Wild. Insane. All because of Fanny's laughter that goes "Gasp! Laugh. Gasp! Laugh. Gasp!" - you get the idea. We even took a video of it, and it sounds erm, kinda suggestive. Something to do high-pitched moanings when you reach the climax or something. If you get what I mean. Stayed at Thai Express till about 1030PM before we walked over to One Fullerton. Took loads and loads of photos the entire day. Our obsession got worse when we sat down at the steps near the Merlion. Paul left around 1215AM, while the 3 of us stayed and took more photos with silly poses, imitating anyone and everyone possible. Hah. Cant wait for Yufen to upload to photos. We left around 1250 and decided to head to Fanny's place. Bought some food up to Fanny's place and stayed up till about 330AM before we sleeping. Oh, Fanny's room is
atrociously messy. Gosh, I have never seen such a messy room in my life. Even Rui's room is much neater than hers. Fanny, Fanny.
I woke up at 820AM (slept with contacts so my eyes hurt a lot), Yufen woke at 9 and Fanny was the pig. Hung around before leaving at about 10. Wanted to take a cab home, but I got irritated after waiting for 15 minutes at the taxi stand, and decided it would be faster if i took the train.
Surprisingly, I'm not very tired after I got home despite sleeping for only 5 hours or so. Or maybe there's
another reason why I'm still here tapping on the keys of the laptop and not lying on my bed sleeping.
Hah! If I were to die tonight, I'll probably die a happy person. Lalala...
Overwhelmed with a sense of relief.
11:56 AM
